Reality check

The conversations in inquiry has resonated with me for the past few days. We're talking about our mindsets and it's made me take a step back and analyze my own life and how my mindset has changed since coming to college. During the in-class discussion I found myself to be a fixed minded person. I don't take initiative to move forward or better myself which is not a good trait in a college student, I admit. It was fine in high school to be good at something and make minimal improvement but here I am constantly expected to be better than I was the day before, a task i have found to be troublesome. I do want to better myself but there is one thing that keeps me from excelling, my lack of drive. I have no motivation at all to do well in classes I find trivial and under educating. for example my philosophy class is something I choose not to attend. I do the work and I will pass but attending class for an hour and fifteen minutes is almost unbearable. Perhaps attending class would better my mind but I simply don't care to retain what that class has to offer me. I have zero motivation to excel in philosophy so I choose to be average where it's easy and I'm comfortable. The opposite seems to be true for my inquiry class. I truly enjoy class time spent discussing the readings or previous class material but when it comes to extra work done outside of class i feel under stimulated therefore I lose interest and take no agency to do well. after reading about how I can be grouped into the fixed mindset category it really makes the reality of my laziness hit hard. All in all I can see this book as being one of the most important things I've ever read.